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If you need help and you think there is a God then ask him for help. You might not get the help you want but its a wonderful way to maintain a connection with God even in troubling times.

Don’ forget to Ask God for help.

And keep asking, this isn’t a one off message, keep asking for help.

Remember the way through your predicament may not be the way your mind thinks.

So often in my life I have been mind focused on achieving something only for that path of mind to fail and for a wonderful one to spring up just behind me in the opposite direction with seeming no effort at all.

Other times I have had to persist in the light of constant set backs and eventually through time the solution comes.

It’s never obvious or the Mind will latch on and the Ego will thrive on the success.

Why worry ?

There are many reasons to worry but I have found this saying from Meher Baba most invaluable, so simple,

“Give you worries to me and let me worry for you” , Meher Baba

Worries obscure your connection to God so give them to God and let him look after them. This has been a really helpful way for me to deal with some worry patterns. But you don’t just give your worries to God once, keep doing it and this in its own way also strengthens the link to God.

Over many years I have read many books about Meher Baba and some of his words and found them most helpful.

Worrying is a pattern of the mind, its a form of control and a fear of what may happen in the future. The mind wants to know what happens next and it wants continuity. It wants what it wants and so worrying is created because of this lack of control.

This worrying is very natural and is very difficult to stop. But you can rise above it and use the upper mind to start to see what is going on.

Worries generally attach themselves to events which you fear the most and the worry pattern or the mind uses this to exert itself over you. This is a pattern you can start to learn about how the worry can attach itself to an event and in splitting the event from the worry you can start to gain some sort of understanding of this.

Worries are very persistent and its almost impossible to get rid of them but you can learn to understand them and what they attach to. Sometimes you will find them attach to an event you know is perfectly fine but the worries are so strong they make you check that everything really is okay.

Giving you worries to God on a constant basis also helps this process.

The problem with worry is it blocks out the heart and the light from the upper chakras. This can drain your energy and make it hard to follow the right direction as the guidance from God and energy you receive are both blocked by this spinning mind of worry and numbed heart.

You can also find this energetic worry pattern can be picked up from people close to you physically as you are close to their energy field.

Sometimes you can pick up these worry patterns from people who you are linked with emotionally or family even when they are far away, especially when they are thinking of you.

These worry patterns can be exaggerated when you become tired or out of balance. They can be part of family patterns. These patterns can float to the surface when parts of them are ready to clear or when a death is close in the family.

These worry patterns are so difficult to clear but with God’s help and more awareness of what they are you can reduce their impact.

Is God just my imagination ?

Most possible its just imagination.

And the inner voice too is that imaginary ?

Its a a great question.

But what is the mind ? Is that imaginary too.

And God as a mind concept really is a little far fetched.

So what to follow and what to trust ?

I’ll have to go with what feels good and that’s the inner voice and guide. It’s peace, its bliss, its light but in short supply to a busy mind.

Mind feels more painful, limited, staccatoed and flawed at every step…full of trouble and ignorance, constantly whirring, spinning.

To question the inner voice as imagination is essential but to give this question it’s context you must also ask what is the mind and if ever you work that out then of course the next question would be who am I and who or what is God?

If you don’t know then that’s a great place to be.

Mind worry fear. Part of developing spiritually is to learn about fear and worry by understanding the concept. Many people think worry is caused by an event or a possible future event and it can be.

But worry & anxiety are just an emotions attached to the mind or heart. They trigger under many circumstances especially a loss of control or understanding.

This emotion then attaches to a physical object or event to gain traction over the mind, to add wieght. It’s important when worries crop up to realise that often the worry and the object of worry are completely separate and unrelated.

It is the mind’s worry pattern which is trying to exert itself and so attaches to a likely target, a weakness, or an important even, so it can express itself fully. This is a recurring issue and constant awareness is needed to wear it down over many years. 

The same can be said for many emotions, wants, patterns that wish to exert themselves. They have to attach to an object or person in order to fulfill their function.

Constant awareness – focussing on upper chakras – while staying grounded at the same time. Not so easy.

I have been practising this for many years and still there is worry, fear and anxiety present and still it is disconcerting, but less so, much less. I can look at these emotions from further away. I can spot the gap between the emotion and what it has attached to. There is some distance between me and it. But still it is there and still is can be an obstacle and cause worry, anxiety & fear but it is less and I am aware of it which helps a great deal.

Acceptance as life as the path. Life was never meant to be easy so along the way there are going to be troubling moments and difficulties which can create different emotions which can cloud our judgment and block out the spiritual light. Learn to be just a little aloof, a little distance with the upper mind and its awareness separating fact from fiction.

Clearing Old Mind Patterns to find God- The aim of life is to see God and achieve bliss and union in God according to many spiritual writings.

This doesn’t make a lot of sense if you are involved in the wonderful pleasures of the material world. But when you get to feel and see just a small part of the bliss that moving towards God can produce it becomes a very tempting proposition.

If your aim is to enjoy life, be happy and find peace then it makes perfect sense once you get a taste of it. If you are lucky enough to find a bit of spiritual bliss then sooner or later the bits of old mind patterns start to pop up and get in the way.

To see more of this light or bliss and more often, you need to become lighter and this involves discarding some surplus baggage. When you start to follow God this surplus baggage starts to appear and floats to the top of the ego and makes itself known sitting in front of the mind.

You may or may not notice it. Other people usually do and point it out. It’s as if this bit of mind pattern, ego or baggage becomes prominent In front of you and can cause some issues. A worry pattern may set in, or anxiety or usually whatever is your weak point.

It’s important to become aware of this process as once it starts it keeps on happening and if you have no way of clearing it this accumulation of stuck patterns can cause issues or the mind can become overactive or overwhelmed by these loose patterns floating In front of you.

There are many ways they can be cleared sometimes through travel, moving to a new area, changing job, a new sport. Sometimes they can be caused in part by the death of a friend or relative. Other times clearing through the focus of spiritual yoga, Tai Chi, meditation, flower essences, a spiritual practice, healing etc. The possibilities are many. 

In my life what I have found distinct and powerful is clearing these old patterns which can sometimes represent as fear, anxiety, greed, lust. These patterns are often cleared initially in the spiritual but then must be played out and worked on in the physical world.

The physical life usually throws up something which will challenge the pattern and one of the challenging emotions of anxiety or fear (or other patterns) will try to attach itself to the physical task or event.

This is an interesting game where you try to separate the emotions of fear or anxiety from what it is attached to or being caused by. It’s not often that I have found these patterns cleared simply by healing or meditation. This is usually just the start of the process and life is there to live through and clear these patterns through constant awareness of them.

For example for me a recurring pattern is either anxiety, worry, fear or loss and this emotional pattern then seems to sit in front of the task I am immersed in. It could be a really simple task and the emotion is out of all proportion to the task in hand but the pattern of say anxiety and worry will be very inflated. For example one time when I had given up my job to travel and I had plenty of money in the bank, my mind would play on the fact I had no regular income any more, but it was obvious that I had plenty of money in the bank. To calm the fear I would look at my bank account every morning and prove to my stupid mind that there was indeed enough money there. Quite ridiculous. This pattern persisted and has done again in later years on the same issue but much weaker and on other parts of life too. So this is what I am trying to explain. There was quite obviously no problem with money but the old pattern was sensing a weakness, a change and was attaching this old patter of fear or loss to the fact I had no income even though logically I still had plenty of money. These nice straightforward worries are really helpful in splitting the pattern off from the even in the physical life to show the 2 are separate events and allows you to become more aware of certain patterns using the upper discerning mind.

Again the way this happens can vary person to person. Just simply moving house or jobs could be the entire process you needed to move on with no spiritual input at all and the patterns may just clear with the move.

Deaths of relatives is another key aspect of clearing and if you aren’t ready for their death it can be a forced clearing as they release their patterns attached just to the body in that life which you are linked to. This can leaver you feeling like you have a hole in your energy field.

So releasing family as they near death or after death is so important especially the emotional release attached to the heart. Like it or not you are part of your families patterns and they are part of yours. Everything is interlinked. As you get older or relatives do these old patterns start to get looser and can be released easier.

Following Mind or God. This is most difficult as I explained in earlier posts.

How do you know it is God and how do you know you heard him and not mind. Did you interpret it correctly. Did you hear him clearly and are you capable of following.

So for this exploration let’s assume you did hear him and it is God for sure. This is where the eternal dilemma occurs within as you can quite clearly hear the guidance and picture it but you will find mind knawing away at the edges and trying to find a resting point for it to re-establish it’s control of illusionary security and peace of mind. And this place for a while may indeed provide peace.

But imagine constantly following this inner guidance with no fixed points or references of mind, floating from place to place with no gaps to allow the discernment of the mind. It’s a difficult choice in the head, almost impossible. 

From my experience these floating times come every now and then with a change in life, an upheaval, and you feel much freer. But after a while the guidance seems to bring you to ground to work through the next obstacle which cannot be passed without grounding or being more present in the physical body and it’s existence. Without this grounding you seem to drift and float but make little meaningful progress and a paranoia can develop.

Life is the path and through the path you can find God.

This is a subject which I am going to return to later from different angles of how and if it can be cleared. The recognition of this is something which I have found fundamental to my spiritual development especially as my parents and wife’s parents have been approaching the end of their lives.

This article is from my experiences, from what I see and what has happened to me so take it in that limited concept and see how it affects you.

Over the last 15 to 20 years this part of the energy body has caused many problems for me but has also been a fascinating journey of discovery and release.

As we look onto our world we have our eyes of inner and outer worlds and the mind then projects itself out to form our daily life. Directly in front of this vision of life I see the pattern of the individual which is part of that individual and part family patterns from parents. These patterns stretch back down the family lines into history. Then there are country patterns, class patterns, school patterns etc formed throughout life.

Then beyond or through this patterning lies the actual functioning of the active mind or at least mind sees life coloured and felt through these patterns. And then beyond this pattern you can exert some form of common senses or rational twisted and turned by the ignorant pattern.

The upper mind appears to sit mostly above this pattern observing mind and starting to see patterns but can only be bought into action over it through constant awareness.

For the mind this is more straightforward but the patterns are what make us and so its most difficult to see these patterns as they are our normality, almost invisible.

The patterns I am most interested in and had the most effect were those established early on, the family patterns which start to impress on you from the moment of conception. Your parents patterns are the ancestors patterns, as of course your parents patterns were gathered from their parents and then modified by the society they lived in and so on back into history.

These patterns aren’t anyone ‘s fault and aren’t really owned by anyone as they stretch back into time. They are just there and in front of you to deal with, and be able to see through so you can see the clarity beyond, the light, unpolluted light of God.

I don’t regard this as functioning mind, it is more a cloud which mind has to look through and it colours out actions, an inherited cloud.

So while we can gain control over the mind, these patterns can defy common sense and you may often think, why did they do that, it just doesn’t make sense….or at least not to you. This I have seen as the cloud of family / life patterns which could most likely also include your past life patterns. I didn’t look too far into this, I just looked to deal with what was there blocking out the light and causing trouble in my energy and emotional body.

Even though we can clear the mind and gain control over it there is still this aspect of past Mind from families and impression of life which has to be looked through.

As I grew older and my parents and wife’s parents approached the end of their lives these patterns seemed to get detached and come to the surface. Particularly at night they could enter your mind like a wondering spirit .

For me the patterns which persisted and could be distinguished from my own mind and not related to what was happening. These patterns as they impress or colour the mind attempt to attach to every day happening and colour the mood.

For me the patterns or clouds which came in were.

Anxiety, sense of loss, things going wrong, inability to get things right.

Added to these patterns would be your upbringing which of course has to be peppered by a parents guiding hand of what is right or wrong which no doubt gives these patterns their extra weight.

How to clear them and if that is possible is another question.

God is

God is Everything

Everywhere

God does Everything

God knows Everything.

Even thought I write this from my inner deepest conviction, I still cannot live this in its true depth of meaning.

I see glimpses of it. God shows me his coincidences of fragments of it, showing me it is,

Such a huge concept to grasp in totality.

So big it obliterates my mind. But my mind is still there so some distance to cover within time itself.

There is a start and a finish but where is the distance to cover and what time will it finish ?

I’m not this body says Meher Baba. Buddha says don’t worship my form. So what are these spiritual masters trying to impress on us. It is the importance of the inner connection which comes to a point where it surpasses the outer connection God willing. Looking at God in the physical form or practices of worship of God at some point move from this connection with the physical form to a clearer connection from only within.

And this last point is most poignant as this inner link is at the Grace of the master. This inner link can be developed to a point with an inner vision to still the mind and find peace. You can empty your mind or bring it under sufficient control to allow Grace in. When your inner connection is still and sincere enough an addition connection is made that is the grace of God. God comes to you linking from above down to your level instead of you looking for him by looking up or in. This I call God’s Grace or decent of Grace. Everything is by the Grace of God but we are not always aware of it. This is the start of a more direct connection.

This inner spiritual guidance. What is it ? Where is it going. It can eventually only go to one place once everything else is removed – God. On the way there may be side shoots, obstacles, amusements, wants and needs of many sorts. But in the end it can all only come to one point of oneness.

God lies beyond the reality we are involved in. All the things in life appear in front of the Bliss of God. Our attachment to them and focus on them no matter how beautiful or wonderful, friendly. Conversations, looking, hearing, even singing. All of this obscures God. When life is at the direction of God or directed at God then that is another matter. Even conversations about god, are of the mind and drawn on the voice below the crown. 

This is poem which I love and puts a very beautiful perspective on the enormity of what isn’t God.

Poem – Atma Shatkam

I am not mind, nor intellect, nor ego, nor the reflections of inner self (citta).

I am not the five senses, nor am I the five elements.

I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Śivam), pure consciousness.

Neither can I be termed as energy (prāṇa),

nor five types of breath (vāyus – Prāṇa, Apāna, Vyāna, Udāna, Samāna),

nor the seven material essences,

nor the five sheaths (pañca-kośa).

Neither am I the organ of Speech, nor the organs for Holding ( Hand ), Movement ( Feet ) or Excretion.

I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Śivam), pure consciousness.

I have no hatred or dislike,

nor affiliation or liking,

nor greed,

nor delusion,

nor pride or haughtiness,

nor feelings of envy or jealousy.

I have no duty (dharma),

nor any purpose (artha),

nor any desire (kāma),

nor even liberation (mokṣa).

I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Śivam), pure consciousness.

I have neither merit (virtue),

nor demerit (vice).

I do not commit sins or good deeds,

nor have happiness or sorrow,

pain or pleasure.

I do not need mantras, holy places, scriptures (Vedas), rituals or sacrifices (yajñas).

I am none of the triad of the observer or one who experiences, the process of observing or experiencing, or any object being observed or experienced.

I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Śivam), pure consciousness.

I do not have fear of death, as I do not have death.

I have no separation from my true self, no doubt about my existence,

nor have I discrimination on the basis of caste or creed.

I have no father or mother,

nor did I have a birth.

I am not the relative,

nor the friend,

nor the guru,

nor the disciple.

I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Śivam), pure consciousness.

I am all pervasive.

I am without any attributes, and without any form.

I have neither attachment to the world,

nor to liberation (mukti).

I have no wishes for anything

because I am everything,

everywhere,

every time,

always in equilibrium.

I am indeed, That eternal knowing and bliss, the auspicious (Śivam), pure consciousness.

These verses of the poem are said to be valued to progress in contemplation practices that lead to Self-Realization.

Nirvana Shatakam, is a famous six-verse (shatkam) Sanskrit poem composed by Adi Shankaracharya that summarizes the core teachings of Advaita Vedanta (non-dualism). It is a meditation on the true self (Atman), stating that one is not the body, mind, or senses, but pure, blissful consciousness

Guidance can come in many ways. It can start through the silent voice or inner feeling or intuition but the upper mind must be used to sort out the real from the real.

The inner voice is a quiet voice inside which can be like an imagination, inner thoughts or feelings of thoughts. These thoughts if you get them have to be distinguished from those of your own mind. God talks to us all in many ways but this inner voice is something which is most helpful and nearly everyone will have it if they can become quiet enough in the Mind.

The upper mind can be used to try to distinguish this inner guidance from your own mind and mental thoughts and emotional feelings.

Inner feelings of direction can back this inner voice up but sometimes can also give conflicting directions and guidance. Sometimes the inner feelings can be ahead of the inner voice. The inner feelings can give more of a complete picture but not always the way to get there.

Then of course there are the guides if you are clairvoyant from the Astral planes which again are different and this is not what I am describing. The guidance I want is from the light of God, not spirits in the Astral realm. Spirits in the Astral are minds devoid of bodies and having released their attachment to life and the body temporarily are freer but not close to God.

It is difficult to interpret and distinguish these inner subtle and gentle paths of guidance from the force of mind, instincts or mental patterns. This does not even cover the forces of fear which can overlay and crush the mind. These feelings of fear have a clamping effect of intense pressure on the mind drowning out all sense of reason and guidance. Fear, worry and anxiety obscure the guidance of the light and so these obstacles must be worked through and distinguished for what they are to progress further.

Dismissing fear & anxiety in the face of God’s will is indeed a very difficult task as you are going against deeply intrenched feelings of fear, worry and discomfort to follow a very vague voice of inner spiritual guidance.

On this matter one point I would like to clarify before looking further. This guidance is difficult to interpret and follow and is not so clear. But I am sure that it never involves harming anyone or anything. The fear you must go against is your own and that of loosing face, control, self righteousness is a more normal outcome than causing upset or harm to anyone else. It’s to humble you, not anyone else.

Mind works fast and likes definition rational fixed points, ends and beginnings. It loves completions, clarity. It talks in the language of definite yes and no. Its paranoid about loosing face, humblings and lack of purpose. Mind likes a quick solution, an instant fix, a riddle solved. War, hate, violence they are all creations of the mind seeking a quick solution. But these quick fixes only create another problem due to Karma, duality and cause and reaction. Spiritual guidance prefers to steer you around the objects of conflict and isn’t troubled if it increases or decreases your status.

If the Mind thinks it has won then the spiritual guidance may have lost. That’s the conflicts of the path. To win is to loose and to loose all is to win.

Guidance is slower, less sure, less defined more continuous rather than fixed points of the mind. Yet this guidance is analysed through the mind which makes the whole process so confusing.

If Mind is a straight line from point to point then inner guidance is a very curvy road where you can only see to the next corner. Mind thinks it can see further ahead, but guidance knows you can’t.

When you see the start the mind thinks to draw a straight line to where it expects the end to be with nothing in between and a total complete solution and completion of the task at the end. It maps out what will be at the end of the line and what it imagines will be after that.

Guidance’s curvy road stretches long into the distance from the start to the end which is God. Each corner is only as far as you can see or as much as the mind can comprehend. This corner is not far enough along the road for the Mind to see the solution so it frustrates the Mind. The solution when it eventually arrives may not even be the one you thought of in the first place.

Mind projects your past learning, inherited characteristics and patterns into the future to achieve its wants and desires.

Guidance takes all from God to direct you along the path with the path as its guide.

You can see there are great differences here to overcome and accept between the opposites of Mind and inner spiritual guidance.

Guidance is more like a curved ball or a road of endless twists and turns. The path is narrow. It only goes to a single point beyond the mind out of sight of the Mind, but the guidance to find it rests only in the now. Its the path. The curves are the mind sitting in the way and the path has to endlessly turn to steer round the mind.

This curved road means you can never see far ahead so overtaking is dangerous and constant awareness is needed to see what is coming round the next corner. Careful to slow down on the corners and don’t be tempted to jump further than you can see. Every now and again a hairpin or cross roads appears and great care and is needed here.

Mind listens to the guidance and relates it to past experience and projects a straight line a tangent to the curve ahead with a definite end of accomplishments or failures wherever its patterns take it. But after a short moment guidance has already moved along it’s curvy path while mind is still sprinting along the straight line to achieve the goal as quickly as possible taking you off the path. But guidance knows what is on the way is also the end and follows God’s will to the end.

If you do get used to this game you start to notice the stark choice that is made time and time again.

The thinking Mind is in the opposite direction to the listening to the direction of the inner guidance. The outer life of possessions, achievements and money lie in the opposite direction to the direction of inner listening.

As time passes a gulf starts to open between the 2 choices. Can you let go of bits of who you are, what you have achieved and want to achieve to keep looking the opposite way to move closer to oneness which is devoid of the individual mind and ego. How long can you give up your individual thoughts to look the other way along the path ?

Both heart and mind need to be cleared in many endless stages.

Worry, fear, anxiety, lust, greed possession, family patterns, ego patterns, relationship patterns. Both heart at emotional level and thinking mind at crown level need to be cleared and come under the guidance of the upper mind which lies just above the crown. Auspiciousness?

When upper mind functions fully then inner heart can work which when fully activated emits true love.

To try and grasp what this task is and its true meaning is not really possible from out Mind perspective. Looking from Mind we are trying to undue all that is ourselves. Mind projects out in front of us it’s will and our individual and family patterns sit in front of the Mind to add in further complications. This creates who we are. But to find true bliss and our real selves all of this Mind has to be lost which comes through constant awareness of the upper Mind to slow these patterns of the Mind and eventually let them pass through like a film with no attachments to outcomes, wishes, desires, thoughts, or emotions. The end game is what is me, you or I has to go to become one, the attachment to the individual Ego. If this impossible event is ever achieved then all that would be left is Bliss.

If you could look back on life before you started you would know what was going to happen and worry would be far less as you would know all the events.

But time is the factor, it exists for us, which disallows this most helpful insight.

But as you approach the light of God so time changes, slows and within the light the effect of time does not exist. This was proven by Einstein starting with the formula E = MC squared and the Lorentz factor. Its a strange thought but these formulas are a working part of modern life like GPS.

So approaching God helps you see more.

The conundrum of course is what are you going to see if time condenses to nothing. Everything you know would condense into nothing and everything becomes nothing but it contains all that ever was and is to come and anything else you can think of.

But in this nothingness everything is existing. Its Only experienced throughout illusion of time in illusion.

Below are some simple extracts from Einstein’s theory.

According to Einstein’s theory of special relativity, time dilation causes time to slow down as an object approaches the speed of light (c). At exactly the speed of light time stops entirely for that object relative to an outside observer, meaning a photon experiences no time.

For a photon (or anything traveling at ), the journey takes zero time from its perspective, regardless of the distance traveled.

The Lorentz factor shows that as velocity  reaches , the time interval approaches zero.

Objects with mass cannot reach the speed of light because it requires infinite energy, so this “frozen time” applies specifically to massless particles like photons.

 At the speed of light the distance between points also contracts to zero, effectively making the photon “everywhere at once” so in effect as well as time existing so space does not exist.

In a particle accelerator electrons were accelerated to 99.9999999987% the speed of light. In that incredible environment, Einstein’s equations still worked perfectly. At these speeds, a hypothetical clock accompanying the electrons would tick a little over 200,000 times slower than a clock near a stationary electron.